I Want to Ride!

:D I finally hit the point where I'm not dreading my next lesson! In fact, for the past couple days I've been looking forward to it!

Two things changed:

1) I seem, for the moment at least, to no longer be afraid of mounting. No lie, the dread leading up to the first two lessons was almost entirely centered on "Oh god I'm going to have to mount the horse what if the girth is too loose and the saddle slides down and I fall and I hate it when that happens D: D: D:"

2) Riding became more than just a "Get me out of the house because I am lol depressed" activity. I actively enjoyed my last lesson.

People look at me funny when I mention that I do a lot of things outside the house that I don't actually enjoy. It's hard to explain that it's not because I dislike doing them, it's because I'd much rather be sleeping/in bed/sleeping in bed than being out of the house. I'm fairly good at discerning between my dread coming from hating an activity and my dread coming from my brain being wired funny.

And right now, riding is fun enough that I want to ride right now.